The end?

I can’t sleep
There’s something rattling in my heart
Can’t beat

I feel as if there is no tomorrow
And extreme sorrow
Invades my thoughts

A certain helpless
In solitude in dark
I want to give up
And take this easy way out
Out of this stuckness
And fall asleep

I never understand why me
Why this
And I still cannot choose
Am I a coward?

This night I cry
For many unsettling to come
Endless ungrabbables
My hands cannot touch