1. The Settledness of Running Long Distance

    I am not a long distance runner. I run 5k and 10k races but I do not do half-marathons or marathons. After running short distance for almost 5 years, I began to get bored running just 3 miles every day. It became a routine. I knew my runs too well.…
    on On Running

  2. 林夕的词

    这几天不想干任何事情，情绪忽高忽低，索性就听听林夕的歌，懒洋洋的在自己的世界里拒绝一切的打扰。 林夕的词写的很美。以前的我却认为那是一种做作，儿女情长卿卿我我是对人性的无视。现在当生活中的一切都归于原点，我对爱有了不同的理解，才终于能明白藏在这些文字后面的深意。 林夕的词写的大多是想要的东西得不到。他曾说过，我写了那么多的词，到最终赢不到一个人。这种伤痛，从前的我会不屑地说then fuck that，但是现在的我明白它是一种绝望的悲哀，永远无法被填补。因为那一个人是那一个人，无人可以取代。 我曾经幼稚的认为只要我诚实地面对自己的内心，下定决心去做一件事情，那我就一定能达成我所想要的结果。在弗洛伊德的眼里，这是小孩无所不能所向披靡的幻想，是对主观世界的一种沉迷。我的童年也许太过美好，我真的还是个小孩，没有对现实有一点点的触碰。我如此不成熟，会哭着闹着去抱怨我的欲望不能马上被满足。耐心和接受是我不顾一切反抗的两个东西。 现在的我明白人在现实面前的无力。有些东西也许不论我多真诚地恳求，多努力地去追求，也终究不能被我掌控。我想要的不在我触碰的范围里，我期许的只存在于我的想象世界里。现…
    on Free-form Jottings

  3. My Desires

    My desires cannot be appeased - partly because of the other that I desire and partly because of me. I used to believe that I will always get what I want if my heart authentically desires it. I would then put all my energy into pursuing the other. Since the…
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  4. Run on

    I haven't run in a week and the energy is piling up in my body. It reaches a point where I am tightened and in need of a "catharsis." So I took a walk around the res, trying to concentrate on the music and to empty…
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  5. All The Gifts You Have Given Me

    The other night you told me you never wanted a child before you had me. Not because you didn't like children, but because you didn't want your child to go through all the pains in life. Yet I am the best gift you have ever received.…
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