1. New Forms

    I like truths, pursue the absolute, but covet the smallest things. Self-contained theories are the most beautiful. Yet reality is against simplicity. Or civilization would have already ended. Life is kind of wasted I think. And I don't want everyone to understand. That's not my responsibility.…
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  2. 无法停笔的写作却被停止，所以我看着它

    在纽约生活有时候就会被突如其来的瞬间击垮。 在办公室里情绪被收敛的毫无毛孔。然后，那辆被追赶却逐渐驶去的列车和那无情的地铁等待播报版，就像被上天派来嘲笑的使者。又是一个轻轻一戳的十分钟，能让人炸毛。遗憾跑在顶端差的就是那么一秒。结果却是十分钟。这是什么不像样的道理。 我总觉得遗嘱在这个城市里是需要的。枪击打架捅刀子，车祸撞墙砸东西。意外之所以是意外因为它是意外。而每当我想到这些不可能性，我有几句该说又一直没说的交代。但那些都是之后的流程，这样想来也没有什么重要的。再加上写遗嘱某种程度上好像在招呼自己的死亡，大体上有违生存的准则。 情绪和逻辑是可以分得很开的，但分得很开的结果就是一层无法捅破的隔离。一个问题可以被理解和推算到90%，但不能完全解答那剩下的10%。道理我都懂，可是为什么会，嗯都说不出来。对人的分析也可以有一套说辞，且大体上没有偏颇。我又逐渐的不相信自己，或者逻辑还是在深处说服了自己造成情绪的困扰。要为情绪找借口可是太容易了。 对自己的分析到底是该放在优点还是缺点。或是我的出发点又错了，哪有绝对的优点和缺点，只有事物的影响和被影响。原谅我无法说服我自己。…
    on Free-form Jottings

  3. To Exist For A Better Cause

    I used to think that humans exist for their own sake, and to seek happiness is the sole purpose of life. I am the center of the world I live in, and my self-consciousness constitutes the world. Therefore, how I perceive my surroundings, how I care for my feelings, and…
    on Free-form Jottings

  4. Pink Bubbles

    Im falling in love again this time it feels different its a sense of comfort and assurance as if im falling through a piece of cloud but i dont hit the ground i used to hate uncertainties, demand results this time it feels different the uncertainty is gentle and i…
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  5. Lost Email

    There is an email that I need to send, but I simply cannot remember what it is about. I've scoured my mind for the possible cause, and I scrubbed the list of team members, no help. When was it that I told myself I had to do it?…
    on Free-form Jottings